2 and a half

dear baby,

haven’t been updating this blog as i’ve already moved to blogspot. i don’t what came over me that i decided to drop by and see if my old account is still active. it is.

so what can i say baby, it seems that the lord is finally answering our prayers. you seem to be getting over your GERD. you are still syringe fed at this time, but the vomiting has been so limited, that days pass by without any incident. an impressive feat don’t  you think?

sunday night

Dear baby,

you are again sleeping soundly in our room beside your daddy. you have developed a habit of sleeping on my arms, it’s such a good feeling, because you have a tendency to shy away from physical touch, i know very unbecoming of a baby girl, good thing you seem to be getting over it. whenever we ask for a kiss though she just pushes her cheeks on our lips, sometimes daddy is blessed with a tentative kiss on the lips. he just goes crazy when you do this. =)

i read from a blog somewhere that the terrible two’s can start as early as 18 months, where you have a tendency to say no a whole lot. but i guess in your case you had a headstart since you learned to say ayaw-ayaw-ayaw a lot earlier =)

what will happen tomorrow? i’m going back to work. i will miss you terribly. i don’t know if you will eat properly. i will pray to God so that He will look after you, like He always does. don’t worry baby, He always knows best, and in His time you’ll get over your milk and food issues.

i love you baby,

mommy

where do i start?

Dear Bea, 

hmmm, where do i start? obviously there will be a lot of flashbacks involved in this blog as i started writing to you on your 18th month of existence already. being the “organized” person that i am, i hope you forgive me as we jump forwards and backwards in time as i don’t think i can write to you about your life in a chronological fashion.

Let me begin with the present. today is saturday night. you are sleeping soundly in our room. a whole week has passed with us spending it together. i had to stay home for a week to take care of you and watch you closely.  the past three weeks you stopped drinking milk. ever since you were 2 months old, you stopped sucking milk from your bottle.  we haven’t got a clue why. since then it has been a rollercoaster ride for all of us.

we started you on solid food as early as 4 months, as per your 3rd pediatrician. you loved at first. you kept on making happy sounds whenever you ate… but after a couple of months that changed. you’d spit everything out.  you’d only drink water. that was we had the go signal to feed you milk through a syringe.

a month ago we saw a pediatric gastro, and we were adviced to undergo an upper GI series. you were made to drink milk mixed with barium. then we watched in the monitor as your insides light up (because of the barium). when the milk reached you tummy it slowly got back up to your esophagus. it is confirmed. you have acid reflux. and it’s making your tummy hurt whenever you eat and throw up. this is causing your food and milk aversion.

then three weeks ago, you stopped drinking milk you kept on spitting, not being able to take in anything. we got really worried. you were dehydrated, and running a fever. we took you to your second session of occupational therapy (the therapist though with good intentions, coouldn’t really help her) then we went for a second opinion. we prayed to God to lead us to a doctor who will be able to help. on that day, only 2 doctors were holding clinic, the first one was our original doctor, so that leaves us with no choice i guess. (i think the Lord made sure we wouldn’t get His message wrong)

we met with the new doc and she had a lot of new ideas for us to try. we shifted milk, upped your meds, made me follow a varied meal plan, plus she asked me to go on leave for a week to closely monitor you.

i prayed to God before calling my boss. i explained your condition, thank God he understood.

so i stayed home with you for a week. i just want to tell you i loved every minute of it. in just a few days, you’ve learned so much! makes me think of how much i’m losing out on when i’m at work and your at home with your yaya.

i would really love to just stay home and bond with you my baby girl. you are growing up so fast.

the good news is you’ve been able to eat some solid food. the first days were really bad, you’d spit everything still. you’d only drink water, still won’t drink milk. you’re a good girl with your meds. you’d chew on your prevacid and acidophilus. you ate only banana and papaya… and rice.

this coming monday, i plan to give your yaya detailed instructions as to what and when to feed you. i don’t how we will both handle not being together i will really miss your presence, your goofy antics, your baby smell beside me.  i really wish i can just stay home with you. i really, really do love you.

 know baby, that you are always in my heart.

eat. drink milk, ok? for me?

i love you,

mommy

happy 18th!

Today you are celebrating your 18th month… 18 months of making mommy and daddy smile, cry, laugh, argue… you are basically making us feeling every possible emotion parents go through…

thanks for lighting up our lives!

btw way, this week you learned to say Wow!, “bow” (ball) and “wowo” (lolo) =)

of course you make our faces light up whenever you say “mimi” and “didi” (yup mommy and daddy).

you’ve learned so many new antics… you are really growing up fast…

now if only you’d get over your feeding problem already. =)

we love you. =)

 

love, mommy